Tuesdays are hard

Tuesdays are hard and of course because of that they are my favorite day. I love to work hard and I get annoyed when I am not learning. So much of learning of course is in the mind of the beholder and there is always opportunity for it should you be willing to see it. On this course, in this place in my mind I am in a constant state of analysis, I notice so much and it swirls around my head like a whirlpool of self reflection. I find meaning in everything, I constantly think in metaphor and draw parallels between random acts and calculated plans. I find significance in the things I do right down to the way I fold up my bike. So I am learning that my brain and my being communicates ideas at least internally through metaphor and often in non linear thought patterns. When I communicate ideas, be it feelings, teaching, or responses to a provocation I am often very true to how I feel. This however doesn't always come across as I would want it be it in performance or teaching I think i'm saying I want more control over the way I communicate.    

And ah I feel flat today and a bit like what's it all about! what am i doing? I know it's because Tuesdays are hard and I have high hopes and aspirations but also because I miss my man. From being so full of the feeling of closeness and touch to be apart again feels hard, like tuesdays but worse.