Learning from Cats

I witnessed the most fragile, tender, tense and beautiful exchange between a tom cat and a Ginger cat.

Talk about the power of movement in nature, this was a moment of pure theatre.  I was literally transfixed as I watched the negotiation between these two cats, that held the potential promise of a vicious fight but at the same time a highly sexually charged pussy duet.

The Dance

1. Eyes locked between both cats
2. Tentatively like a prowling tiger the ginger advances
3. Tom arched his back but stays put
4. Ginger's movement is so controlled I see muscle contractions travel through her
5. Both are making those wonderfully mystic cat noises that enhance my anxiety as a nervous cat person and hater of conflict
6. The Tom cat strong and still
7. The ginger taking a risk
8. The ginger starts to lower her body in a submissive way, and then becomes incredibly sexy. Her body was so appealing I was under her spell. She lowered her head and made it clear she was there for him
9. Without moving Tom grew and seemed to tower over her
10. The energy was electric

They didn't make love in front of my eyes but it was more than that. I felt honored to have witnessed such a primal encounter. I was never sure what the next move would be. I was on the edge of separating them in a stupid human interfering way, I am so glad I didn't.

I love saturdays like this.

FXXk up diary!

I just can't believe myself sometimes, for someone who is grounded and at times intelligent i can be sooo stupid, I really am a born idiot.

To mention a few recent events:

I am staying at my friends house, which always gives me houseguest paranoia as I try to be small and mouselike, taking up as little space as possible. On my first day I manage to lock her husband and two young children in the house and set the alarm off. I realise that I take instructions too literally, as I had been told to swipe the alarm and lock the door when I leave the house, that was my going round my head like a  mantra and then I failed to consider that the house was not empty. I ran back down the street to the house where her husband (who had cronic stomach pains that day) was shouting to unlock the door and asking me why I did it! I opened it and was met by the 4 puppy dog, scared stiff eyes of the children who must wonder why I have come into their lives and how soon I could leave.

There are so many examples of my stupidness, it hard being me...

Today I superglued my tongue and fingers together
I looked at my digital watch to figure out which way clockwise was!